. >> when it came out of his come partmentallization, great word, and he broke free from that and he was going for the treatment and the testosterone and the hormone ps and he's becoming a man in front of your eyes, beginning to shave and you had your breasts removed and everything, so you're physically becoming a man, when you're seeing that process, what's going through your mind? was it concerning you? did you freak out? did you have arguments? >> there are two components. the physical and the emotional. the physical, the major change first was the top surgery. i was very nervous about that. i was very nervous about going to san francisco, that's where he did it. i had no idea how i would react. but to my surprise, i was thrilled. like i got it. when i saw his chest the way it looks now, i thought, oh, right, this makes sense. and i was surprised. i actually thought i might miss the other, but it worked. >> so physically there wasn't a problem. what about psychologically? >> emotionally we went through a lot of work. and i mean you go from being in a female dynamic, even though i