a third bottle and a suicide manual warns pino barber tell -- phenobarbital. i got it illegally she said of the drug supply. it's quite easy to do but very risky. she lives in a home in a small village in three under president a pub called the lazy toad the church of england parish church in the town council in which he has spent several terms and a reputation as brilliant and steadfast sometimes needlessly adversarial. in her 80s she was on an unformed aesthetic plastic clogs often airings sometimes a --of lipstick or by the time time she planted by her white hair was so long it nearly reached her waist. it's way from the garden and in the mornings it took no small effort for her to pull her hair back and post an order on it with elastic and bobby pins and late morning it was falling down around her forehead. she stares slowly as she always did bent over and clinging to the banister nearly crawling so she fell she wouldn't fall far. her walker was waiting at the top of the staircase but she didn't need it. she was only going as far as the bathroom. for weeks