and my psychiatrist decided to do something drastic sow put me on the anti-is psychotic clozapine and the difference was like night and day. and i was able to return to georgia tech. i-- graduated with highest honors. and i decided to go to grad school and focus on neuroscience. and i did well in classes but in research i just could not focus on the task at hand. so so i was able though to write a masters thesis on connectivity in the brain. and to this day i think that that masters thesis contains the meaning of life. and for that reason i have a saviour complex. and basically i feel that the entire weight of the world is on my shoulders. i decided to try to make the masters thesis into a dissertation so i went to the university of pittsburgh to be in the center for the neurobasis of cognition and i took a class in neurobiology and sat if the back of the class. and i could understand nothing from that class. is so i had to leave the ph.d program in disgrace. when i left at that point, nobody would hire a graduate school dropout. so i had to spend a year at sears selling tvs. i've gon