kate, rashad and margie are back and with us in studio, wade davis, a former nfl player who came outnd is now the executive director of you can play, an organization that advocates for openly gay athletes. and from washington, d.c., jason reid, a sports columnist for "the washington post." thanks to you all. i want to start with you, wade. we were just talking before we came back on. what is it like when you are waiting and waiting and particularly to have just come down like to the wire like that. >> you're literally not breathing. i remember when i was waiting to get drafted, i literally didn't breathe. your family is there, your friends are there. you feel the appreciate sthur have that moment when they are around and all that excitement. as are you waiting you start worrying, they start worrying. i think for michaelle sam there had to be fear that maybe i made the wrong decision, maybe that coming out really hurt my actual draft status and i think that you saw with his crying and his release like this exhale going, wow, i made the right decision to live in my truth. >> do you thi