and i watched rene getimo morai money and when the wounded came in, get this. and imagine a horrible thing happen to your son or wife, and how do you get the money to fly there and leave the jobs. how do they do all of these things we take for granted. we are lucky and fly relatives back. but others who are not so lucky. how do you provide for child care. those soldiers, those marines, there are parents who care for them and will for the rest of the their lives. the country doesn't do a lot about that. you have to raise funds privately. you have to help them. >> so when you try to cover war, and you have to rely on the military for access. and you see things that you don't think are all that good. how do you report that? or do you have to pull your punches in order to get access the next time you go back? >> no, i would have no respect with people i traveled with if they wouldn't take me if i didn't pull my punches. >> do they kick back at you? >> you bet they do. the administration does, you get kicked back all the time as a reporter. i go with general campbel