himself, but in that, he begins to, for the first time, wonder aloud about mutual destruction which robert mcnamara, the secretary of defense, had put forth as the doctrine that would carry us through and, in fact, has from that period until now. and he said a governor has the responsibility, first and foremost, to protect the people in his or her state. so early before he became president, reagan was thinking in the human dimension about his political responsibility. i think that's a part of the reagan story that hasn't been told. his relationship with the soviet jury, his understanding of military aspects from a human rights convention, how his own religious faith helped him build this unique equation. i don't think until we understand that we can understand ronald reagan. the day before he was shot, he attended the local -- i think it was a presbyterian church. and after service, he came back to the white house and began working on his speech which was given to labor union democrats and he was shot shortly thereafter the next day. and he began to write and think about the perils of a mutually-as