i'm roddy austin. i was in lagarie between ‘60, ‘61 and december ‘67.st day in lagarie, i was three... ..and there was a white—haired lady sitting at a great big table. and to me, she was a granny, and i ran up, shouting, "granny, granny!" and the next thing i knew, i was flying across the floor after she belted me across the face. she then stood over me, and that's the nightmare i had for years, telling me, "i am matron, not your granny". that was matron anne miller. she was the boss, for want of a better word. my name is philip donald, and i was in lagarie home forjust over two and a half years. my dad's job was a merchant navy seaman, and we got put down in that home because me mum and dad had split up. and it all started from there. the matron used to pull me by me ears. i heard the cold bath getting filled up right to the brim. she picked me up by me ears, threw me in a cold bath, soap on her fingers, put my head back, and put her fingers down me throat. so i was choking all the time. to the outside world, this was anne miller, a saintly christian

roddy austin was there. unless you've lived it, you can't try to fathom what went on in that place.d me up by my ears, throw me in a cold bath, soap on her fingers, put my head back, and her fingers down my throat. anna miller dies with her reputation intact. she was replaced by this couple. the reverend william barrie and his wife mary in 1972. former resident euan macdonald said they were cruel and abusive. it was a christian system you had to live by. you wet the bed, you get the bed sheets rubbing in your face. mr barrie would hold you down and she would belt you. she would hold you down and he would belt you. survival at lagarie came at a cost. former residents angela montgomery and her two sisters, mary and norma, said that, over the years, they were sexually abused by mr barrie and his sailor‘s scoiety associates hundreds of times. after a while, as unpleasant as it was... not that you get used to it. there was no point struggling orfighting. there was a level of acceptance. it became part and parcel of life at lagarie. the home closed in 1982 and william barrie died just ove