yet six months later, he lost his father, who died in ropsha, under unclear circumstances, and his motherpress, there were rumors that she promised to transfer the throne to her son as soon as he became an adult. that is, after 14 years, the promised had to wait 34 years. as a teenager, pavel was prone to frequent neurosis and depression. at the same time, the teachers noted the great abilities and interest of the young prince in the exact sciences , the art of mystical philosophy. he had a cherished dream of becoming a knight of the order of malta , which he read about in the old book. and being an emperor seemed to him a terrible and difficult fate; he was ashamed of his mother, whom he considered depraved, was afraid of her favorites, was burdened by the frivolous atmosphere of the court. the only consolation was friendship with the young count. andrei razumovsky, pavel wrote enthusiastic letters to him. your friendship has produced a miracle in me. i begin to renounce my former suspicions, away from chimeras, away from anxious worries. when pavel turned 19, his mother found him a brid