rudy? gonzalez, gonzalez, come on. >> prison staff think this latest cutting incident might be more about gonzalez'san threats. >> people think you're not going to make it. >> who's thinking that? >> just how you're acting. your actions have changed the last few days. you're starting to wig out a little bit. >> i know, it's because i'm nervous. >> but you've got to take control of that. >> i'm trying. it's been eight years. that's a long time. >> i understand that. but there's a lot of changes out there that you're going to have to face. >> exactly. and one of them is my dad not being out there. it's going to freak me out a little bit. every time i needed him, he was there. and him not being there is one of the things i'm stressing about. >> you're going to have to find somebody else to deal with that. >> i'm trying my best. >> spend as much time with your little girl as you can. now you're going to start another part of your life. and that's what you need to do. okay? all right. >> thank you. >> all right. >>> up next, ricky beauchamp experiences first date jitters. >> kind of odd, you know, not se