rudy? gonzalez, gonzalez, come on. >> prison staff think this latest cutting incident might be more about gonzalez'sg release than threats. >> people think you're not going to make it. >> who's thinking that? >> just how you're acting. your actions have changed the last few days. you're starting to wig out a little bit. >> i know, it's because i'm nervous. >> but you've got to take control of that. >> i'm trying. it's been eight years. that's a long time. >> i understand that. but there's a lot of changes out there that you're going to have to face. >> exactly. and one of them is my dad not being out there. it's going to kind of freak me out, be weird a little bit. every time i needed him, he was there. and him not being there is one of the things i'm stressing about. >> you're going to have to find somebody else to deal with that. >> i'm trying my best. >> spend as much time with your little girl as you can. >> i know. >> now you're going to start another part of your life. and that's what you need to do. okay? all right. >> thank you. >> all right. >>> up next, ricky beauchamp experiences first da