yes, i'm guilty but god has forgiven me. >> but rupel told us her religious conversion wasn't easy. > these ladies that would come in to do a bible study. i have to say, i hated them. they come in with their cheery little faces, smiling, telling me everything will be all right. everything will be all right. jesus will fix it. i was like, you don't know what you're talking about. maybe the biggest problem you got is that you might burn the dinner or have an overdue parking ticket. you're not facing what i'm facing. i was facing the death penalty at that point. and i don't want to hear it till finally i just -- i'll come if you just leave me alone. i don't want to hear it! and don't ask me to talk! that's how i was. >> eventually, she joined the bible study and found a connection with several of the other participants. they too, killed their husbands or boyfriends. >> it helps me just knowing i have sisters i can lean on, someone i can talk to, someone i can share these things with. in here, you have to be careful who you share things with. ♪ here is power for you all ♪ here is power fo