what ruth am i. c. c c. c. c. some people love to hunt and i love to hunt animals. here move for sale or whatever for whatever suits their fancy. but i can also tell you that there is no other feeling in the world it comes close to harming another human being. that's what you're trying to do. and the drawback to it is if i could you want to do it again. there's your joy. it's almost like a drug and you become addicted to it but after a while like with any like with any addiction. you know series you're fired and you get that first burst of enjoyment. it only lasts for so long and the high comes to a low. after wears off it felt to me like there was a more shows and muddy dark waters feels like old swimming you know in a big you know what we've referred to in the marine corps as a ship pull and. you find yourself. looking forward to the next. mission or for combat roles. you get a rush it's like oh. i don't know why you do it but it's first kill it's same hard you should think about it specially. if you have to kill it close quarters. it up and were killed with. weap