they were all at saint martins, the royal college of art, and i thought, "oh, why can't i do that"?ffers having sex. and you express your pain so candidly — experiences many women have and can relate to — have you ever regretted being so open about those intimate things that have happened to you ? i did say once, "the worst rape of all is to rape yourself", so when you publicly, like, you know, tear yourself apart and open yourself up. but i've been doing it all my life. and i think the only time i didn't do it, which i was very, very quiet about, was when i had cancer, a very bad cancer. i was very quiet about that while i — because i thought i was going to die, so i thought i didn't want to make a big fuss about it. in my life, i'm very open and candid about things, because also, i think holding secrets, holding heaviness, holding weight is very unhealthy, and not very good forthe mind. and when i was younger, people thought i made very narcissistic work, and very self—indulgent and very vain work, because it was like, "me, me, me". but now, now times have changed, people realise