. —— salli owen. some of her memories of that night took weeks to come back to her. drinking water because i'd had enough, did not want any more but i kept finding vodka in front of me, not water. i was just hoping they would say soon that they were going to sleep because i was so tired, but they didn't. so eventually, i ask them, i said can i go to sleep now, iamso them, i said can i go to sleep now, i am so tired? and i had so many drinks that i could not speak properly, i couldn't walk straight, and then they suddenly seemed really nervy around me, really edgy, and then when i stood up to go to bed, they stood up as well and they grabbed me and... that's when it started and it went on for hours and hours, and... it was, a lot of it i do not remember but, i remember, i remember the pain and i remember bits of it like being smacked so ha rd bits of it like being smacked so hard around the head that everything went white and i couldn't see. it was really scary but i was too scared to say anything and i think evenif scared to say anything and i think even if i had tri