gaza that morning, six o'clock in the morning, was leaving my tent in nasser hospital, i saw samer abu daqqameraman. he said, "oh, you are going!" i said, "yes, i wish you will go soon, keep in touch". samer, we were in the same building for 12 years. i used to see him every day, we used to have breakfast together almost twice a week. and he was the last one i saw in gaza, the last face. then i took the bus and i left. and suddenly, i was driving in the highway in turkey, and i got a message that he was injured, not died. i couldn't continue. i'm so sorry, i'm so sorry, rushdi. i'm sorry. i had to stop by the road in a petrol station just to follow the news. talk to people there. and you know how difficult is the communication. i couldn't continue my way and i couldn't come back. i was stuck in this petrol station for two, three hours. and talking about numbers, within this year, more than 100. the committee for the protection ofjournalists has said at least 128 journalists, all but five are palestinian. and please, if anyone can remind me of any conflict or war that experienced or witnessed