saqida, tell me what does your school quite? how did teachers what? is it true you go to school alone and return by yourself? ira thought maybe they were making fun of me but i discussed it with my father and my father asked a different question. did you notice any school from pakistan to a afghanistan? any hospital, anything and my answer was no. so basically for me it was all these questions that shaped my motive, shaped my mission and it is easy to criticize things i did in my childhood. easy to be angry at things but it is equally important to reflect back and see that we could be critical but then it is important to answer one question. what can i do to make a change? that was the beautiful gift my father gave. to take respect to our home where we initially came from and see that i was privileged compared to my own cousins when they were living in afghanistan. so for me that was a beautiful gift my father has given to us to take us out of afghanistan and provide education. all of that was for -- it really helped me to reflect back and get things