in retrospect by sauve that she was explaining to me why she would do this.alked about a lot of guilt, the ways she had raised her son. she talked about a lot of fears that she had and, said the die had been a good friends to her and yeah, it was very, very disturbing but as disturbing as it was i did not think that her life within a few days later. >> what did you find about iris chang? >> that she was very, very complex. there was a lot of kind, this the near perfection that all this basically saw her as having the absolute perfect life from being the perfect person to the extent that we didn't even want to share problems with care because we did not think she would understand having problems, what that was like. she was incredibly, incredibly driven and that is what helped her to uncover all of these tough parts of history and atrocities in japan. with the mental illness i think she did not know when to stop and she did not know about any kind of limits that she had come so she was inspiration in her drive, not saying limits but ultimately it was the weakn