this is not about aki—sawyerr, this is about sierra leone.ghts. this is about the destruction of democracy. i have never questioned myself as much as i have in the last few days. never questioned this decision as much as i have. that moment my daughter lay on the floor next to me, the teargas, as a mum, you know, i do not know how to describe how i felt. do not know how to describe how ifelt. guilt. fear. worry. all in one. i said to someone this week i reallyjust felt... . but i cannot. i cannot stop i cannot, i cannot ring myself to do that. ., , ., cannot, i cannot ring myself to do that-_ i _ cannot, i cannot ring myself to do that._ i have - cannot, i cannot ring myself to do that._ i have to i cannot, i cannot ring myself to do that._ i have to go do that. love you. i have to go back to work. _ hello there. for the start of this weekend, it's going to feel like we've stepped back into winter, rather than spring, and it's due to the strength and direction of the wind — a cold north—westerly which will feed in a rash of frequent, heavy sh