. >> reporter: shawn andrews is much of the strength behind the philadelphia eagle's offensive line. last summer this 6'4", 330 pound right guard almost sidelined himself. >> i talked to my agent and told him i don't think i'm going to training camp. >> you wanted to quit? >> yeah. to give it up. he said, there's a chance you could lose a few million dollars. at this point i'm like, so what? >> reporter: you didn't care? >> i didn't care. >> reporter: that something was clinical depression. an illness andrew says he's battled since grade school. but he's never talked about it, to anyone. >> when you're thinking about killing yourself -- >> i did have some -- i did have some suicide thoughts. i was in my truck. never forget. i got to about 140 miles an hour add i was thinking, i don't want to be here, and funny, just as i was thinking about flipping my vehicle or whatever the case, a picture of my son came across my phone and the look at his face, he didn't know what was going on, but the look was like, why dad? so -- >> reporter: that stopped you? >> yeah. >> reporter: from killing y

shawn andrews is much of the strength behind the philadelphia eagle' offensive line.summer, this 6'4", 330-pound right guard almost side line himself. >> i talk to my agent and will him, i don't think i'm going to training camp. >> reporter: you wanted to quit? >> i wanted to give it up. he said you can lose a few million dollars. and i was like, so what? >> you didn't care. >> i knew something was wrong. >> that something was clinical depression. an illness he said he battle since grade school. but he never talked about it to anyone. >> were you thinking about killing yourself? >> i did have some suicidal thoughts. i was in my truckism got up to about 140 miles an hour. and i was thinking, i don't want to be hear. and it is funny, as i was thinking about flipping my vehicle or whatever the case, a picture of my son came across my phone. and the look in his face was, he didn't know what was going on but the look was like, why, dad? it was tough. >> it stopped you. >> yeah. >> from killing yourself. >> uh-huh. >> for many black men, depression is a dirty secret they ke