. >> go ahead, shellen. >> i'm totally overwhelmed. when i got the call this morning, i felt like i was hit by a train. you know, you deserved to get what he did because he did it. he's out on on a technicality, but that doesn't change the fact that he's a predator. all of us girls are still suffering, some more than others, but it's a travesty to justice to me. >> yeah. joanie says -- joan says she's moved beyond it. it's been tougher for you? >> it's been tougher for me. i go to counseling. i see psychiatrists. i've been seeing them for years. and it's hard for me every day. it's even hard even being married and being sleeping and i have nightmares of him to this very day. and it's hard on me. >> chelan, when you address the court, you directly addressed bill cosby from the stand. and you said, you remember, don't you, mr. cosby. do you think he still remembers? >> yes, i do. he looked directly at me. when i said my grandparents names, he looked directly at me and it came out as if they were saying it themselves. i knew he did and he