something of some of is sid did you that gives us a taste -- sid did you that gives us a taste -- sid kerr that gives us a taste of that. >> sure. >> absolutely. >> this is the piece that let me connect to the siddur to the prayer book because i felt like in many ways i was doing this as an intellectual project i had a lot of logistics and i read this and realized my husband who was not jewish might not want a jewish burial we might not be buried in the same way when i read this prayer, it really made the experience live for me. how do i mark a loss that leaves no ritual trace you imagine for yourself no mourners, crowded together over the earth becoming your body, no weeping against the rising murmur of grief that holds everyone no rending of cloth to resisting and difficult decent to god's perfect judgment by body struggles to keep from standing up my tongue to keep from blessing your name in those strange syllables in no moment and every moment the rising and weeping and struggling move none the less through my veins, fever dreams my spirit cannot forget. >> thank you so much. please jo