and he sees simon wiesenthal as the authority of architect of a campaign against him, and he delves deeply into the subject. he repeatedly, over and over again, writes out a chronology of his life, writes letters describing exactly what happened, you know, at the camp, defends himself. but he also becomes fascinated with what he sees as war crimes committed in the israeli war for independence, war crimes committed by americans in vietnam all in search of a sort of fragile architecture of apology or innocence for himself that he spent literally decades crafting. >> what did it feel like to hold those documents? what did it feel like to actually read this stuff? was it weird? >> absolutely. i mean, it's an actual, you know, connection to these events that, i mean, neither of us was alive during the war, obviously, and here, you know, here the hand that most likely operated on living, healthy people and killed them in the process is writing out this, these explanations and these apologies. >> in english, german and french, right? >> as well as some arabic. >> some arabic he tried. >> you disc