going to continue buying and isn't particularly yield sensitive in fact as an old sensitive at all so i think that's had a huge influence on rates so if you look at the eight trillion or so that's outstanding just on coupon paying debt assuming it's been able to keep the rates down by one to two percent a year say two percent that right there would be one hundred sixty billion that he's saving congress separately when we look at the coupons that are being paid those treasuries pay about two hundred billion a year of which the fed gets fifty six bill. and the fed collects that fifty six billion and returns it to treasury as a profit which is a very weird dynamic so the treasury pays the fed on the day the fed then turns back and pays that coupon interest back to treasury along with all their other holdings so i think last year last fiscal years we haven't seen this years. the fed gave eighty eight billion dollars of profits back to congress so the estimates are the fed is directly probably subsidizing our budget deficit by between one hundred fifty to two hundred fifty billion a year so

those are the two big things like got educated and i took action so i you know like you said about personal finance at the time i didn't have much first personal finance knowledge either i had racked up about ten thousand dollars in credit card debt and i just really wasn't even focusing on my money i was in the you know the dot com boom days the party never stops let's buy another round of drinks for all my friends and really wasn't focused on my money yeah yeah but once that crash happened and took all my money then i really decided this is it i've got to get educated i refused to let this happen to myself again so yeah i did it my mission and for you getting educated wasn't watching jim cramer and figuring out what is stock picks were it was a very different education and just to give one example you read a lot about monetary history not something we talk about on this show but why was something like that so important to learn about. yes yes for me i started by reading actually every book i think that robert kiyosaki had written and i went a step bey

then turns back and pays that coupon interest back to treasury along with all their other holding so i think last year last fiscal years we haven't seen this years. the fed gave eighty eight billion dollars of profits back to congress so the estimates are the fed is directly probably subsidizing our budget deficit by between one hundred fifty to two hundred fifty billion a year so it's not insignificant in fact it's very substantial becoming one of the biggest line items on how well how nice of them you know the deficit needs all the help it can get but i can imagine that this has some impact on distorting markets to put it mildly and possibly some impact on confidence in the u.s. dollar as the reserve currency as the world still currently looks at it to be so what does it have that the fed is it has this large of a controlling stake in the market was the purchaser of sixty one percent of the treasuries that the treasury issued last year according to one figure i saw yeah i think it's starting to make people question you know what is the value of treasuries how should we be looking at

so i said, ok. so three months later, i moved down there, and again, with the help from the local bank, you know, i bought a fishing boat, a dock, and i become a fisherman. but just for i think a very short period, one year and half. because i was not lucky at that time, you know. i come in -- in at the time that they have the worst season of fishing. we go out day and night, you know, 18 days, 20 days a month, but did not catch much shrimp. so at the end, you know, i asked the bank president that, here, you see, i try my best, but because, you know, no luck, so i give them back the fishing boat and the dock and everything. >> now, did you actually fish yourself? >> oh, yeah, oh, yeah. i went out, you know, myself, you know. >> did can you actually run the liquor store yourself? >> oh, yes. >> what would people say -- >> of course, with my son and my family. >> what would people say to you when the they would come in andd you in the liquor store who knew who you were? >> many -- i can't tell you an e

so i did the collection with my interpretation. i tried to understand the base, the concept, so it is good. you have to read, definitely. >> creativity is so difficult to define by creative people because you just do it instinctively. you were telling me that last night, something inspired you, and you went back andrew your next collection until 4:00 a.m. what inspired you? do you know what set it off? >> i think it is image sometimes. one that you do not expect can be also a surprise. it was not the case here today. yesterday during the night, it was more like an image that i have seen or received little and i did not know how to treat it. something making me think about it yesterday. after it came and i wake up, instinctively it came like yes, i could do it like that, so i wrote that to remember, and after i was into it, it was very exciting. yes, i find it because always, you are looking for something, you did not know what. until it becomes more concrete, it gives you -- i need to have that direction. it is a real pleasure. some

i love that, so it has influenced me. for example, in london, i saw a black trench coat, and in the front, you say black is not for children. black is bad, and everything like that that is ridiculous, so i told them. i must say that one for me was a learning experience. i love it. >> london has changed, as every city has. you certainly will not have any of those bankers wearing bowler hats and numberless. more to the point, london out is tremendously diverse. paris is becoming in admitting that it is more a diversity, and there's a little line for me quite hidden away the says i'm very much a parisian or i'm interested in parisian women, but not quite sure that i ever met a parisian woman. what do you mean by that? >> what i mean is that my education, i have been looking at old movies that i love. we speak about the reputation of the parisian, which was supposed to dress very well. i think that, you know, in france, the eccentricity -- for me, eccentricity is very chic and it is what i love. it is so much about the good ta

so i will also add his name. lso would like to add larry saxxon, someone who i don't know, but i've heard a lot about through other individuals, and was very impressed by your presentation today as well. i do want to give opportunity to other committee members, if -- we have 15 slots. >> i do -- will certainly be in agreement with that. michael costa is subpoena tha cd love to see on this committee. do you want to start with a motion? >> it would make sense to get to 15 and then make a motion but i certainly agree with all of the recommendations that were made. i think stu smith, very impressive presentation and the level of support from the community as well as larry saxxon, michael costa. i think he probably will play the role of the policy wonk and i think that's something you want to see as well. someone that i've always been very impressed with, because of what she means to the community, is felicia elizondo. i think it's important to have representation from all sides of san francisco. i also want to add jor

so, i want to just go on the record a little bit. i'm all for this if you're willing to pay, but i don't want to see a situation where other workstations within that department suffer so that somebody can get expedited. so, i don't know if anybody wants to talk to that. >> [speaker not understood]. i appreciate your comments on the staffing and the ability to respond to the increasing numbers of records requests, whether they be 3r or not. we are trying to get down to the envy of five days. we currently are on eight days. we started on 15 days about a month ago. we met with the realtors, the board of realtors, talked to them. they were expressed interest in having an expedited 3r report process. when i asked them what does that mean to them in terms of numbers of days, they said five days. our nbo is five days also. so, assuming that after we get staff and we can bring it down, we will be able to meet our nbo with the, you know, with the regular process rather than going for the expedited. but because there are so many -- i don't want

so i guess to questions if i may. one is, in interacting with native iraqis and i was curious as to if you gleaned any perspective from them of this strategy and what was your and your fellow soldiers take on this as she saw this craziness as an approach? >> i think the first part of that is it's easy to say a terrorist but a terrorist is 20, 50, 120 different groups depending on what tribe against which tribe and all politics is local and the whole world is local so in kirkuk it was the kurds and the arabs fighting mostly over the control of that city and then down in baghdad is shia and sunni and another place it's different so sometimes you which is caught in the middle. it wasn't that they were inadvertently killing iraqis accidentally. it is that they were purposely killing each other and you happen to be their there caught in the middle. so the perspective was, talking to -- and you know part of my tour and part of the frustrating thing or something that i learned later is just how insulated we were from the ave

i tend to work so hard at getting things done. that i kind of ignore things about myself and you know. in the midst of this i thought i could pull off this big movie big this but i mean if in the beginning i didn't have enough finances to do what i was going to even off a lot of help so just the bad turn a lot. that's all it is you want to me. i think that i'm going to have to spend a while for the cooper radiation so i may go down to one of the strangers and actually you know shut myself back up in the air and not just emote but and be as effective because i won't be able to climb out of the brush in any game but. you know when you have a game to go show i'm looking to maybe go back and help out the situation. where it's been a real pain in the ass to try to keep it elevated as much as possible but you know what it's probably the worst bone in your body to break. everything you do. you know i struggle around in the band i haven't really been added a van march i basically got one or two hot meal since i got here about two weeks ago

so i wanted to understand that. and i wanted to understand how everyone living through that period must have looked at it through the lens of loss and suffering and bereavement. so i began to ask those questions. >> no one had any way of being prepared for the number of deaths. and they struggled with it in a deeply intimate level. how i do believe in god under these circumstances. how i do prepare for my own end. and we also struggled with it collectively. you know what does it mean to be a citizen, what does it mean to be a government who asked citizens to fight and die in a war over the meaning of citizenship. >> rose: a study of medical discovery, a new movie called as arbitrage "and a look back at the implication of death from the civil war when we continue. funding for charlie rose was provided by the coming coming:-- following: captioning sponsored by rose communications from our studios in new york city, this is charlie rose. an important discovery that helps us understand the link between genetics and diseas

>> i was just looking the "findings of fact," that have been proposed, and so i guess that particular portion is not in the "findings of fact." but i would be fine in adding it to the major discussion.yyisq [inaudible] -- -- we'll have to make a finding on it. >> do the parties disagree with na, i think the sentence was stipulated. mr. wagner., ou on that? >> i would object to adding any language that attempts to change what the commission decided on august the 16th that is not ultimately relevant to what the commission is tasked to do. >> i can appreciate that view, but my question is did you stipulate what the sentence was? >> yes. >> okay, thank you. >> that is not reflected -- we stipulated to several of these facts. but the way it reads here is that the commission unanimously finds that the mayor proved the facts. well, if we stipulated to the facts already, then the mayor didn't need to prove them. >> okay. i have no objection to putting in the sentence in "finding of fact 7." >> excuse me, i need that sentence then. what i have is hree years' probation, domestic violence counse

so much. anytime, tavis. i love you so much. tavis: i appreciate you, man. i love you back, man.r tonight. you can download our new app in the itunes app store. until then, good night from l.a. as always, keep the faith. >> you cannot get the people here? bring it to the people. as far as st. davis church, i attend st. david. i am hoping and praying they knew not take it back, because it is a black catholic church. we did not have to be anything else. we was always invited to sign davis. so i am asking all of you, the whole town, because i heard nothing for the lower ninth ward. those are my family, my friends, my neighbors. i have been down there 59 years. i know who has been here. i know who came. i know who went. i do not think it is right if you try to take our property. like i said, i did not die with katrina. >> for more information on today's show, visit tavis smiley at pbs.org. >> join mec next time for a conversation with kyra sedg wick. >> every community has a martin luther king boulevard. it is the cornerstone we all know. wal-mart stands together with your community

think make owl of us at this dais weep so i would like to include this somewhat into our conversation about graduation, and about us setting up this higher much more rigorous course of reqens of classes and i understand we're preparing them for that but if we lees them before that they won't graduate and what do we do about the students now and what is the safety net for them? and will we be able to give them that sense of resiliencies and not eanl through graduation and carry them through life and it's tough at some times and we want every student to feel successful and if they're not entering college at 18 and like my husband and going at 40 and perhaps they can do that and perhaps we could have a conversation at the curriculum meeting and how this relates to the graduation rate and do projections about looking where we are at the graduation rates and how this is going to be -- what we have learned from this and how can it be aligned through the graduation rate and what is missing or what is not miss something what are we doi

may i take a motion to convene into closed session? >> so moved. hold on. >> when i got up before -- before you go into closed session, i know that will be over with, then i can leave and go home and get back in bed. i have a concern about the item, it says legislation under the 30 day rule. >> chair kim: yes. so we do have legislation under the 30 day rule but that's not being heard today. that's under the 30 day hold for the public to view legislation but it's not being heard at committee so we therefore will not take public comment on it. >> i would just like to have a suggestion here please. >> chair kim: can i ask you to seek -- i can't take public comment on legislation introduced but i'm happy to speak to you as one of the coauthors. >> thank you. >> chair kim: thank you, ms. jackson. thank you for understanding. i appreciate that. we ask members of the public to exit the room as we convene into closed session >> the public wants to access particular information about your house or neighborhood we point them to gis. gis is a combination of ma

i was able to put two bedrooms. so now i have two bedrooms and possibly a third bedroom on the bofment and the thing about it is, i provide parking -- i have three car parking in the front. i tried to get a fourth car but they didn't want that as well. the thing about it, it's the inconsistent sit. i provided skylightses in all my unit but i still had to come bly this light well going into a bedroom. also i want to say if i was able to build these five units i could have dropped the cost down. actually this project for some reason does have the same rules. i just want to come down here and point it -- still today i still cannot sell it because it costs too high. unfortunately, the way the current bank situation is it's just too hard for them to get financing. i'm just down here. you can give me your perfect example. thank you. >> i'm going to call a few more names. woodson, i think already spoke. willy eastman. chang ching. sherry matsa. william easeman. >> hi, my name is william easyman. i've been a customer in that a

a question, i guess. so when we did have tenants they were only in the bulkhead? where were the tenants originally? >> i will pass it on to jonathan. >> good afternoon, commissioners, jonathan stern of the planning and development division. i had the privilege of working through that process, including the eviction action we took and first i want to say thank you for your patience, for your former tenants. this has been a complicated process. when that was a master -- they had the lease on the entire pier. other than the bulkhead, it was supposed to be all maritime operations and behind the bulkhead it was primarily maritime operations, dry-boat storage and did do some parking in there that was not conforming with his lease and was one of the eviction issues. there was boat mooring and storage back there. >> in terms of the total space of the pier, the bulkhead represents what percentage of the space of the entire pier? >> the bulkhead foot print it is about 20,000 square feet, with two levels, so just under

and so i asked him about it. and he said well, i'm really for you, but i want you to make sure that whoever won i would be remembered. and they said i want and you are remembered. so that's basically what you have to do. you have to basically tell people that if they play the game, they're going to the users toward. >> this will be the last question. you must have some power over them. >> i was in the restroom, getting here at the cutoff. >> good for you. >> should i retire? i heard it mentioned about the geographic representation system that itself could be improved and one idea as to a constitutional amendment to divorce the amendment from states so that each senator would represent 3.1 million people at the present time. the boundaries to be drawn by the federal election commission would be bipartisan so that she wouldn't have the party interference and you would no longer have wyoming and alaska, which are two senators in this population in the district of columbia. >> without getting into specifics of any of

so, i have a very hard time dinging the project just based on the fact that i am not so enamored but it. i believe that the two buildings on either side and bonn na v*is ta park is one of the most spectacular settings of historic san francisco neighborhoods, and i think they are tourist destinations, i love seeing the buildings, i commend anybody who has the energy and ability to live and maintain these buildings, but that does not put me on a bind to do something other than what i'm asked to do here. and i just want to leave with that and hear what my fellow other commissioners have to say. >> commissioner borden. >> commissioner moore, i completely agree with your sentiments, and hearing people, i was confused what project they were discussing, when you see the context and the dr requesters put on the screen of the two other buildings adjacent to this property you can see how modest this property is in comparison to these much larger building, it doesn't mean somebody else can't build up their building a bit. i really had a hard time understanding what the concern was, to me, there

so i would love and i have not veted this idea, so i don't know if it's possible or not. i think we should require nert training. we're in a city that the first-responders, even if you had a gazillion firefighters, first of all, most of them don't live here unfortunately and secondly we're going to need all of us when it comes to a big earthquake. when you get this training they say 80% of the people will be needing to be helped. very minorly injureded and then we'll have the training to help them. so i think that would be a really awesome thing if we could all be nert trained and require it. >> mr. resignato, is this time card 3 or 4 for you? >> this is 3. >> from what it sounds like, Û: think i need to become a nert, because i'm a nerd already, but i could become a nert. i love the prevention questions. keep them coming. i'm passionate about prevention. there is a simple thing to make sure that when our earthquake hits we can do what is called "shelter in place." we can keep people in their homes. basically we have lot of multi-family homes with soft understories with a

and so i called mrs. ratliff and said to her i had published a book and that i wanted to a--let her know she'd been my very best teacher, and i told her what i loved about her, which is that she had given me so much wonderful poetry that i had memorized and committed to heart. and i could look back at having learned bits of pope and wordsworth and--and all of the great poets--english and american poets. and so she started crying, and i said, 'mrs. ratliff, what's the matter?' and she said, 'i was teaching out of license. i was really a social studies teacher, but i loved english.' and i once gave a speech at the national council of teachers of english, and i told that story, and everyone started applauding because they remembered those kinds of teachers, the teachers who really loved literature. and i feel very sorry for--for kids today who are--are getting their reading from textbooks and--and from--i--i've read a lot of the current textbooks in use. they tend to prefer stories written by their own staff

so, i think we need to explore other angles. we need to be more career orientated because now we're in the technology age and i don't even think the school system is there. so, that solution right there, u see kids making videos all the time. so, you know, we need to explore -- you need to be open minded and i don't have enough time to really convey my point so, thank y'all. >> thank you, sir. next speaker. >>> with gratitude for everybody that's here, it's a beautiful day. and regarding the illusory nature of our striving, there is no national debt. it is base on deception, murder and trees on and should not be acknowledged. the european, chinese and asian communities around the world have far superior education. home schooling should be seriously considered. american students have long been taught to be subservient spectators to a system gone insane. roosevelt called america the great experiment. * eisenhower warned of the military industrial complex which is why most of our youth end up in the military or prisons. adults would

so i was waiting for that, basically. and then i did receive -- >> president hwang: so you were never advised to stop doing it. that's your position? okay. >> until recently. >> president hwang: thank you. >> ms. young. >> so, again, i would just like to make it very clear that this is a restaurant. the state laws and the local law says that there's still smoking inside of restaurants. and the ordinance does not allow or provide any provision to allow restaurants or cafes to smoke indoors or outdoors. and i -- or any type of business to smoke, if they're located in a residential building. and since june 2010, nile cafe knew, through meetings with me, phone calls, we've had several phone calls, and notices. the first written notice was the denial of the exemption that went out november 2010. the second notice was the notice to comply. that went out august 2011. and then there was two notices of violation issued on 2012. and that was all before we even met with the director of public health. so nile cafe h written notificas

so i guess i approved a little bit of history.i worked on the initial legislation and i'm really happy to see this level of really deep, analytical work being done in a phase 2. because at the time, we didn't have a really good data or studies and there was actually a reticence to do that. and i think i testified here, supervisor mar, several months ago, that i think the next step in terms of really understanding formula retail as the an economic level, we have to get down further into this kind of analysis. and the tools, i think that we need to review projects are just what is coming out here. you know, eventually we have a set of criteria now that we established for the planning commission and the board, but they are relatively soft, i think, kind of a low bar and pro forma for businesses large and small to argue their way through the criteria. so the next step i believe is to add strength to the criteria and perhaps some new ones such as those that require a more analytical, quantifiable approach to understand the impacts of t

i do not want to do anything that would hold up these proceedings any further. >> okay. so the draft as currently amended and i'm sure there will be other amendments, contains a one-sentence concurence from commissioner hayon. do you have that language in mind. >> the language i have is commissioner had aon supports a finding that the official misconduct in this case merits the sheriff's removal from office. is that accurate? >> that is accurate. >> okay.lp >> there were some additional edits proposed by the mayor and i think that they are accurate. so i would propose that on page 2 lines 1 and 2 should now read, "this matter presents the first time that the ethics commission has provided a recommendation to the board of supervisors regarding charges of official misconduct under charter section 15.105." >> did you get that? >> no. >> one more time, please. >> this matter represents for the first time that -- and strike "the mayor has presented the," ethics commission has provided a recommendation to the board of supervisors regarding charges of official misconduct. so you w

still think that we can beat them so i hope everyone will get involved to help nine out of ten people support labeling i mean that's a huge majority there why is there such a fight against getting labeled on the food that we're putting into our bodies well as you mentioned it's all about money in a race like this the voters get to choose but politicians are a lot more susceptible i believe to the influence of large corporations when their campaigns depend on raising money from companies like monsanto so congress hasn't been able to stand up to months and to but i think the voters of california can now let's say this does pass and we do get labeling on our food what do you think the consequences of that be of that will be and how will that affect the types of food we see in our grocery stores and ultimately what the american people eat. well we already see people choosing or janick whenever they can when it's available and when they can afford it so i think we'll continue to see organic grow as it already has but in europe a lot of the c

>> guest: i don't think so. i don't think they face it in the same way, although the pressure on men to look a certain way seems to have grown during, say, my kids' lifetime. i mean, i don't remember thinking twice about whether any guy i ever met had abs. i mean, what were abs? but i do think that that drum beat of how one ought to be is far stronger and more pernicious for young women than it is for young men. and what it means is that we're always backstopping ourselves, you know? not smart enough, not pretty enough, not dressed well enough, not accomplished enough, you know? there's this kind of drum beat of nay saying that i don't think that young men get in the same way. at the same time, in some ways that makes it harder when they get older, it seems to me. because while we finally examined all those internal voices of create is schism and said, no, no, no, i'm enough, i'm more than enough, the criticism starts for them when they get older. you know, that they haven't become the masters of the universe. tha

how it's so. i think everything is hunky dory and you know you get to be in the bite life for us you don't know what's really going on so i'm happy enough to be their. fears the great more. they use it on us all the time. so when it goes bad that's that's coming back at them and they have to start living the of the existence maybe didn't feel so high and mighty when they get into their lexus this get to drive down the hudson river parkway because someone might drop a big stone bridge winch. don't wait for armageddon come and i am. going to be a whole lot. i know me i'm not a quitter. i'm going down much simpler to get man. i'm not like this and i'm going well. as flow as i go i know a bounce back. i am. i am. the be. the beat.

got a group of people that are able to kill with impunity vs the paper i can't tell them pandering so i thought and then i'm about to talk more on the well they are above the law you know i always call it the eyes wide shut crowd because you know if you if you if you watch carefully what hollywood tries to tell us sometimes it's all in the movies but you're putting a lot say a paul ryan in that camp cracks no i think paul ryan you know if you if you if you look i'll just call mr you know my metaphor for the people who are above the laws mr global so if you look at mr global mr global is always trying to find candidates you know for the republican in the democratic party who will build enough of a consensus and capture enough interest in the process to buy everyone into a solution now that always worked as long as you could print as much money as you when you didn't have to balance the budget because you could just pay everybody off so i told the story of you know i went to have someone in the clinton administration and said look you know mindy we can we can take your spending two hundre

i start? ok, good. so before i introduced one of the funniest, wittiest, most amusing and funkiest designers that i know, i would like to start with something a little bit more serious. you know, in fashion, the reason that people laughed seem obvious when you see the exhibition of all it's incredible glory and excitement. but at the same time, there were real reasons why designers laughed, and one of them, when it comes to jean paul gaultier, is probably what is talked about least. it is the technique, the skill, the handwork, the knowledge. sometimes it gets buried underneath the fantasies of the close. but if you look hard, particularly those of you are going to go to the exhibition afterwards, if you look on one side to see the incredible punk can-can clothes, while, exciting, a waterfall. then you look at the central lie all which is the per region and parts, you'll see the extraordinary crest -- kraft mentioned that can turn address and to have a jacket and half the skirt or can make a trench coat on

starting next week, we have a joint project together to hire a city hall so alone -- fellow, and i am greatly appreciate them making this possible for us to begin our report t, so the first thing we are going to have them do is an analysis on a business portal page, and this will assist in the tire and for demonstrating the need for additional funding -- the tie -in for demonstrating the need for additional funding, and depending on time, expanding it beyond that for any citywide technology and infrastructure that will assist businesses in interfacing with the city, so that is something i am excited about, because we have not have the capacity to come in and do some strong analysis around the businesses first engagement with the city and what we can do to improve upon that process, and last, for this particular session, i think you have been forwarded an announcement about the change in directorship about the office of economic workforce development, and who they are going to take on some specific matters around the waterfront, and jennifer is great at doing that, sir she is going to

so, the co-op agreement and the sublease is before you, i ask for approval of them so we can continue to generate money and to provide those services as spelled out in those co-op agreements with the navy and the city. >> so, in the past, the revenue generated was under the redevelopment agency as it related to tida, now tida doesn't exist as it did in the past so now we see that it's general fund dollars, is that correct? what's generated there in terms of revenue will be considered general fund dollars, what's the new consideration for funding that's generated there? >> general fund dollars, we've always been self-sufficient and we haven't had any monies from redevelopment to take care of any of our expenses on the island, so for that redevelopment discussion, again, i will turn to michael time off to explain for it. i think from what i understand, tida used to have redevelopment-like authority and power and the key difference between what we are in now versus what we were before when there was sort of a redevelopment type distinction, it operated as a quasi city type entity but it

every dial in the financial universe is of interest to the fed and they think they're in charge of it so i would call it massive unrelenting mission creep that's reached the point of no return as a point of no return so then what is the antidote at this point where we've never been here before in history there's never been a central bank that has had the arrogance really that the fed has today there is never been a. train of central banks in the world competing with each other to print money to buy bonds to massage the markets to control and manage things the way that the central banks are doing today so we're in uncharted waters and i can't believe anything good will come. out of it because it defies every principle of sound finance that anyone believed in part in one nine hundred eighty i mean prior to one nine hundred eighty you couldn't find economists who would say let's have zero interest rates for six years we have is exactly what the fed has promised to do now beginning in early two zero zero nine and extending all the way through to fifteen there is no precedent in history for a f

so they would come out for spring break as i was starting, so that was half of march. april, may and the beginning of june, first half of june, they would come every other weekend. listen, i mean, i missed a lot. it was hard. then they would spend the summer with me and then i would be home. it was a six-month gig. it wasn't a nine-month gig, so it wasn't completely impossible. there was no question. it was a hard choice. it continued to be a difficult choice year after year. you miss stuff. you just do. every working parent misses stuff. tavis: as an actor, is there ever a feeling of guilt associated with that? >> of course! are you kidding? oh, please. what mother doesn't have guilt? find me a parent, a mother, guys not so much. women always feel guilty. and, you know, my feeling about guilt is, first of all, i feel it all the time, but here's my theory about guilt. tavis: okay. >> it's kind of a useless emotion unless it leads you to a different action. if you're gonna take a different action because of your guilt -- tavis: i buy that. >> then it's useful. otherwise