luck, somein little so people that care about you. you can really put you life back together. not the way it was going to be, -- authentically your owner. >> let me show you some video when we talked about your book "the nightingale's song," 19 years ago. here you are on the program. [video clip] extent,i did to a large i felt anger and hostility that many of my [indiscernible] was, i do not think it is good for me. it is not mentally and psychologically good for me to be part of it. to a certain extent, i unplugged from a networks. and i went off. and up untilporter a few months ago, i became an editor. i was a reporter for a quarter century. that is how i view myself. and going and working on in this book was -- i plugged back into the old networks and their became a fascinating journey of rediscovery. as far as -- i do not -- up to work on this book, i did not talk about vietnam. >> we will get back to that. we do not talk much about the book. i want to continue with your acknowledgment. the other is central person was my wife, many of the events i described happened of fiv