and he got diagnosed with sorosis back in '93, he never told us. he kept drinking. and he actually gave up drinking in the late '90s he gave up drinking and he became very religious, he was seventh dayed a venntist. he never got himself checked and then a year and a half ago when he went the doctor they told him he had liver cancer. and he really held on to the hope that he would get better, he would a transplant at some point and he just never came out of the hospital. >> did his sobering up change your relationship? >> not too much because by the time he sobered up things had gotten way too bad. and even though had had issuered up, he was still very distant and he traded one obsession for another. he went from being an alcoholic obsessed with alcohol to being this religious fanatic. and i remember a lot of times that my siblings and i would invote him to the family gathers. he wouldn't come because he had to be at church. he always had to be church, and we always felt like we lose either way, you know, he could be an alcoholic or he could be religion. we are going