and areas that i had been in and driven a garbage truck and got down in this casting office on south labraia and saw a line of people, four or 500 guys, they all look like juan valdez, the coffee agent. this sweet agent don't want me. they want a young latino. i didn't want to go. i called her. she said you'll never forgive yourself if you don't. don't run away from this. i wanted to run away. i felt helpless. and i said well, i've come so far, at least make them laugh. it was my turn. i went into an empty studio. there was a bank of audio equipment on a wall in the empty room. the director and client were back in new york and they said tell me about yourself. sitting outside, i said my god, what am i going to do? i'm from the bronx. i'm not a latino. i thought about my buddy who is is featured a lot in the book. greatest rock on tour charming and i said come on, help me. he had been dead ten years but i channelled him big time and it started coming. tell me about yourself. what did you want to do when you were a kid? i did it in fernando's accent. i said, i was torn. i wasn't sure if i want