. >> i had a good cry in my shower this morning, i didn't want to wash out the tham spoo. >> i just rememberhave a great head shape. >> do i? >> yeah. >> i was washing it in the shower. >> within two weeks, it will be all gone. walking into a room where there was a mirror was just scary. >> it's horrible. my big guest thing about losing my hair was my daughter. i didn't want to scare her. i needed to still be her mommy. your partner will still look at you as you're beautiful. i have no regrets i did it this way. this is me. >> and meredith israel is joining us now along with dr. nancy snyderman. welcome to you both. just watching that makes you relive all of this. before we get to that, how are you doing now? >> i'm okay. i have a new tumor in my liver and i'm on chemo, two weeks on, one week off. but i live my day, it's normal, i get tired and otherwise, i'm alive and i keep going. >> this head shaving party, you say you have no regrets about it. but watching you go through it, it clearly represented more than just to lose your hair. it seemed to represent something deeper. what is that? >>