susan stanton was born steven stanton. he was a husband, a father, and a 14-year city manager of largo, florida. in february of 2007, it was revealed that steven was pursuing gender reassignment. the cnn presents documentary "her name was steven," follows susan's physical and emotional transformation. it debays saturday on march 17th at 8:00 p.m. eastern and reairs sunday at 8:00 p.m. eastern. >> susan, thank you for being with us. >> hello. good to be here. >> when did you first realize that, as you say, the outside did not match what was going on on the inside? >> i don't think there was ever a time in my life that i didn't realize there was a dissidence between the spirit and the body, so ever since i was a small kid. >> in the documentary, you talk about writing in a journal even as a 4-or 5-year-old, saying something just wasn't quite right. do you remember that time? >> yeah, i do. the thing that the journal gave me was a place where i could share those thoughts in a very secure, private and a protected area because