sumayar, you had your first transplant in 2012, and then?nd then just about last year, this time, it began to deteriorate quite a bit, my kidney function. i got various tests done andi function. i got various tests done and i was diagnosed with a kidney disease which has no cure for it. they don't know why it happens. my kidney had failed within a couple of months and i had to go back on dialysis, unfortunately. what was going through your mind? at the time, it was utter disbelief and shock, i never imagined my brother's kidney failing because it was such a good match. it happened so suddenly, i could not comprehend it. i think i went through a bit of depression. i did think about suicide, and stuff like that. it was quite severe. why, because you felt hopeless?” like that. it was quite severe. why, because you felt hopeless? i felt that i was to blame. and i don't know why i felt that way. nobody made me feel like that. i had really good support from my family and everybody. but i just good support from my family and everybody. but ijust fe