we had a coffee lounge called the grind in sunnyside, queens. and my husband pretty much ran it, but i did all the finances and stuff. we did a really good job. we brought music to the community. we brought standup comedy, open mic, poetry jams, everything. we had someone playing during brunch time. i mean, we did everything we could possibly do to keep it open and create a second home for the community. and it just... it just didn't help, it didn't help. everyone's suffering; they're not going to spend $4 for a coffee. any other time, it would have been fine. it's just... >> you would have at least had a shot. >> we... yeah, we would have at least had a chance. and we didn't have a shot at all. it's just the recession just hit. i think that was... that's what's upsetting is because my husband did everything he could do. we tried to do marketing, we renovated the whole thing ourselves. we did everything ourselves. and it just... it almost deflates your ego when something like that happens, you know? and you just have all the burden afterwards, a