supernaw. maybe if you wouldn't mind explaining a little bit about the difference spent my indian name means dancing feet. part of the reason it was hard is because when i got the name, was in the dream during the horse back riding accident i find it and -- i wake up and you find you've been given the name dancing feet. i thought that was some kind of cruel joke that spiritual plane on me. but it was something that i did promise that if i got my feet and my legs working again that i would earn my name. because i thought maybe that's what it was therefore is to keep pushing me. >> as you think about the experience the readers are going to have reading your book, if you could narrow it down to one thing, what is the most important think you would want readers to take away from your stored? >> some laughter year because in spite of all the bad times, we really need to sit back and able to laugh and feel good. and there are some really sad part, and those were very hard to write. but i would do gre