because i remember the sydney olympics and you running like the wind and this incredible athlete, and you were so inspiring and brilliant, and when i have to even read those words, i feel bad. you know, never mind how you must feel. >> yes. gosh, how do you even put it in words? it has been now, you know, three years since i left prison, and it is still not easy to comprehend. i search for the right adjectives to describe, you know, who -- i certainly never would have thought ten years ago that my life would have taken the turn that it had, and that it has. and so, yeah, it is still hard when people describe, you know, my history and situation. it seems like it is somebody else, like you are not talking about me, but some other person. >> and there is such an extreme that you have had to endure. you have gone from champion, olympic champion, multiple olympic champion to felon. and the gap between those two positions in the public estimation, i guess in your own estimation is just so massive, isn't it? >> i think that people don't really -- it is hard for people to grasp the everything