and i was terrified i was about to lose another baby, and then i found out about this program called tamar children, and dr. gillece is one of the founders of this program. and they said it helps you work on your trauma. i didn't know what trauma was. i figured i had it. i had everything else, your addiction, your mental health, and your recovery. i had a substance abuse problem. they kept diagnosing me with all these mental health illnesses, so a perfect program, and i was able to keep my baby. and this program was also a program based on how to create and develop a secure attachment with your children, because if you don't know, you don't know. if you don't know how to be nurturing and loving, you come from an abusive household, it takes work sometimes not to be abusive. and i think about what dr. clark said and talking about, i don't think trauma so much as dr. clark would say is not in any other cultures. i just think there were different supports in place for those that had been traumatized and, you know, the caucasians or, you know. it was as important to place, as african american, where som