it was in the city of tchaikovsky, one of the greatest gay men to ever come out of russia, and theirc. it means they have a fear or distrust of gay people. as a visitor, trying to be myself, i have to be protected. with bodyguards? oh, yes. what difference do you feel you can make as an outsider, albeit a celebrated famous one, coming into different countries with their own bodies and culture and lecturing them about the way they should organise their society and culture? how can that make a difference? i do feel myself to be english probably first, then british, then european and then internationalist. when you come out, you join a tribe that is all over the world. and i feel i know what it is like to be oppressed in russia because i remember what it used to be like here. i do have a story to tell which is relevant. and the people, really, that i contact when i go abroad, if i'm allowed, other local people who are trying, in their own way, to make their own lives easier... the lgbt people of russia, of whom there are millions. but very few are brave enough to express their individua