most treacherous things, going over glaciers war were milling, over mountaintops that looked like teepees. weight -- quite the journey. >> what was going through your mind? >> i would traumatized, frankly. didn't have a solid thought in my head. i was frightened, i was unsure of myself, i was just following the direction of my mother, who said just -- this is what we're going to do, how we're going to do it, and i just followed. she adopted my son as her own, and now my son had become my brother, and i just took her lead. my mother had a way of saying, just look forward. never look back. don't look back. don't even think about it. that was the way i survived, by not reflecting too much on what happened in the past, and she just kept telling me that i could finish school, i could go to college, i still had a life ahead of me and it was through the strength of my mother. and so my father and god almost were -- could replace each other, and as a little girl, started thinking of my father as this huge god in my life, and so later on in college, i was still looking for some connection to the d

treacherous things we've ever done going under glaciers that were melting, over mountaintops that look like teepees. it was quite the journey. >> was going through your mind during those times? >> i was traumatized quite frankly. i really didn't have a solid thoughts in my head. i was frightened i was unsure of myself as following the direction of my mother who said this is what were going to do and i just followed. she adopted my son as her own and so my son had now become my brother and i just took her lead. my mother had a way of saying look forward don't look back. don't even think about it. that was the way i survived. by not reflecting too much on what had happened in the past. she just kept telling me that i could finish school and go to college. i still had a life ahead of me. those due to the strength of my mother. so my father and god could almost replace each other. as a little girl i started thinking of my father is this huge god my life. and later in college i was looking for some connection to the divine. was struggling with looking for some redemption even though is not my fault i wa

tim teepee zazz a died after a night of heavy drinking. >> prosecutors say nobody stepped in to help him and some of the members even made things worse. fox 29's dave kinchen live in bellefont center county outside that courthouse. dave. >> that's right. details are just heartbreaking. even more heartbreaking when for the first time everyone in court saw ghastly video showing the final hours of 19-year-old timothy piazza's time on earth following a february night of heavy drinking stumbles hard falls with virtually no one come to go his aid. in fact, timothy's family left court before that video was played. >> any statement at all? >> fox 29 cameras rolling as one by 118 former members of the beta theta pi got to court including joseph opens of philadelphia. the 20-year-old accused of punching nope-year-old timothy piazza as he laid on a couch unresponsive. michael, 21 years old out of yardley. accused of getting the booze used in the hazing. >> there was a video tape surveillance in this fraternity house. that captured nearly everything that occurred. there is footage that is quiet