becoming a lawyer and judge after falling in love with those two famous puerto ricans, nancy good and terry mason [laughter] and eventually had to give up on the grid in the military or as a police detective, one of the early fantasies, because of diabetes. it's also very much a story about overcoming obstacles at the same time. loss of your father, he was 42, his alcoholism, your mothers challenges as a single parent, the loss of your cousin to drugs, aids complications, and your divorce but you don't make excuses in the book. when you write about your father's tragic early death, for instance, you say, and i quote, i know he did this to himself. even as a child i knew he was the one responsible. it's on page 44. and then on page 49 there was no saving him from himself. my question, your honor, is this. when we try to solve social problems where does individual responsibility and a shaping force of the environment start and stop, do you think? >> i don't know the answer to that, that i do know, that one answer for how i've approached life. which is i can't change you. who you are, how you respon