i felt thawas justhe way fe is. even wh i got into sports at a young age, i knew i coulplay sports.as driven. at was the ing where i was dedicated. i wasotedicated to acceing myselfecause of thesscars. these are deep wounds, deep scars that yng people get when they are abused and stuff. i do nogo on in my book to use that as an excuse. take full responbility for all of my actions and everythin thai did. i just remeer -- i can remember troing around the base ater a horun and nothing. the crowd is on their feet. i had those elings. the matter howell i did reject a put on my uiform and goo the ballpark andexcel with the best. hd no fear. when took that uniform ofand i went home, i have fear. iad feel about me. avis: it is a fasnating dichoty. what do you makef the fact that u were in metsstadium cranking home runs,running round the bses, peop are goin cry, and you are hearing in your head that you ar nothing. >> that was the true way of life for me. that why ielieve that for so long. th is what i was td. tavis: the adulation never tamped that down? >> all you do is stuff it. that is wh