and the u.s.s.r. or summit meetings, we are dependent on kind of second-level briefings and dribs and drabs of what people will tell us. we just don't have the kind of access to what really went on that people are willing to provide several years after the fact, especially after an administration is over. so there was not one moment, there were just many moments when i said, "oh, if i had only known that!" c-span: give me some example. >> guest: well, one example -- and i cite this in the book; kind of the difference between daily journalism and how journalists look on something and what is actually happening. george shultz went to moscow in early november of 1985, a few weeks before the geneva summit. that's the picture there of sitting down at that meeting with gorbachev. all we had in our heads as members of the press was that shultz had better make a deal with gorbachev or the summit coming up in geneva was going to be a disaster because we had no confidence that reagan and gorbachev would be able