"america tonight's" lisa fletcher now, with an in depth look. >> all right, so this is tim's room. >> reporter: the undeniable love of a mother for her child is evident in a person's home. his room is untouched. >> i can't tell you how many times i've broke down, can't tell you how many times and i will continue to do that. you know i have conversations with him in this room. i can't talk about this anymore . >> katherineham let sat down with "america tonight" just five months after she learned her only child had passed away. with no answers to why he made the unthinkable choice. >> so when you were firtime for -- aljazeera.com notified of his disappearance,-m what was going through your head? >> immediately, i was looking for him, and we filed a police report right away. it never crossed my mind that my child would die by suicide. and it never dawned on me that he would jump off a bridge. so much so, that whield we were while we were searching in the washington heights area, i remember saying to someone, well at least we know something, we know he didn't jump. the irony of that state