tolstoy leo nikolayevich tolstoy writes in his diary. i'm not verbatim, i'm quoting. yes , experts will forgive me, well, we need to figure it out, in general, with fasting with orthodoxy govel. nothing burned out. honest did not feel anything, everything is nonsense. where is the mistake? or maybe not a bug. but, of course, i cannot answer the great classic. what is he burnt in? how did he talk? well, probably there were some, don't remember this moment will either fall out, or i’ll have a diary somewhere, and i ’ve left such a school one, where i don’t remember. well, it doesn't matter, you understand, it's just that you can also conduct in different ways, what purpose of believing can be simply observed because i was told that it can be correctly observed, because this is my sacrifice to god, a certain part, relatively speaking, great 4, tenth tenth of my life. she is specifically dedicated to god. and you can just carry out consciously meaningfully. uh, understanding how it works in depending on what modality of the post we will be in general, you can simply observe, you can just wear it, right? if you want to talk about it, we will definitely come to this. you know, i have my own version, of course, and lev nikolaevich set up a scientific experiment. if a then b a i always , when i read it for the first time, i mentally entered into a dialogue with the great. i say count and why did you decide that you had to feel something certain what do you think, well, he's generally a maximalist. listen , well, the person who learned there, uh, a bunch languages ​​and began to learn japanese in the ninth decade of life. yes. this is the same person who set himself. uh, obviously unattainable goals and was disappointed. yes, and broke off so do not match. well, i don't know, i know a huge number of, uh, and uh people and stories, when such a zealous neophyte. at the beginning of the post , it led to rather severe disappointment and many years of resentment at himself and , of course, lev nikolayevich tolstoy me, would also, of course, not want to present it to a psychoanalyst. i have long been a classic, but it seems to me that it was resentment against himself, of course, it was an insult to some unfulfilled expectations. god and it even seems to me to myself, well, which person e obviously, it seems to me, was waiting for some e, there e illumination of some kind of transfiguration , some kind of metamorphosis. yes, that's all, now the holiday has come, i open the door of the gift. no, how? yes, for some reason i was reminded of one story, one of my friends told me that his friend decided. so the church for the first time in its life immediately fasted everything, as it should be according to the church charter. prepare for the first life of confession for a lifetime everything is grown-up everything is truly great e. thursday, he went to confession, took communion for the first time in his life , came home, opened the freezer. he took out a frozen steak, ate it and said more. i will ne

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here, leo nikolayevich tolstoy is more than tolstoy. and in this sense, too. eh, i tried.ussian nature. you see, this is a mystery to me. after all, he was a talented person in everything. that's why he didn't take trotters' plays there. if everything was successful with him, and here and at the same time some kind of such a strange, dark one, as he himself said. uh, strange strange fate great run me great blind man fate, and the great blind man. he called blind. he is his here and uh, i uh i must say. yes, i really changed a lot internally while i was studying the dry mare. yes , a peculiarity, when you work with some material with a biography, and you change. this is nature. uh, which cannot but have an impact, and uh, this is such an archetypal fate of the russian writer. of course, when u prison, either uh, write or break, or she, on the contrary, makes him a powerful figure strengthens his spirit. and this happened in a dry cabin, then it was the same for dostoevsky when he got out of prison. here, that is, here it is very archite. here is such a collision in the deve