just who was tom chalmers, his supposed british handler?ibility is it could have been you, not that i'm saying that it was. >> could have been me? >> reporter: she wondered why she stopped hearing from the handlers. >> maybe you didn't feel like keeping the charade up beyond that of three different people. i don't know. >> whoa. >> trust me, i mean you cannot believe all -- >> i can't keep my own charade up. >> reporter: she also leaned into him about her missing money, those funds she'd wired to the handlers for the security clearance. >> for all i know, maybe you spent it! i don't know. i have no answers. >> reporter: he said neither did he. he had nothing to do with the demands they made on her. >> ranting at me about it is not beneficial because i can't do anything about it. >> reporter: but ultimately, it's not about the money for mischele. she has lost so much more. >> i just want to stop hurting. that's all. i just -- >> and that's what we're trying to do. >> this is supposed to be love. love's not supposed to hurt. >> love does hurt