i've also been drawn very recently toos the work of claudia's poetry and i love toni morrison fiction. she has a new book out called the origin of others. lots and lots and lots of people. >> two-part question. so with that chronological path is it as you continue your life? we make the journey will go like this. no more visa. except section one that begins like this that is more of a summary or rhetorical before b i plunge into the account of my life from childhood on. and let me just say this i am 49 and no longer trying to be what other people don't fear or loathe or disregard. i can be myself regardless. so there will no doubt be challenges over this life but those are challenges i have well o examined and i'm clear on that. so if it comes then perhaps it isn't about race. >> do you think these problems faced by black youth give you a background that makes you stronger in some way? >> what a lovely question. we are not better people or black supremacist. i know that's not what you meant but is that larger part of black lives matter so can't black lives matter too? we give the talk