i checked them in. >> it would take touhey days to return to work full time. for alex it would be months before he could return to dulles. >> it had to have been hard to go back to work. >> yes. i'm not going to kid about it. the paranoia obviously, was the next person you checked in going to do something horrible again? or was the next passenger you checked in going to die on a flight that you worked? so it was stressful. >> you went into a realtain spin after this, didn't you? >> i put a lot on me. my wife was real good about things. >> your wife actually made you go back to work, right? >> i thought about quitting. and she said no. if you don't go back to work they've won. she says, go back to work and go out on your own terms. and i did. i stayed another seven years. >> i continued to work until 2004. it took me awhile to grasp, get my arms around how big it really was. and it just sort of -- it's something that happened. and you adjust to it. but after i retired, eight months after i retired i started having psychological problems. >> psychological proble