, like that, well, such a blah, drunk, like that, but then trechakov left, left, kolya also walked him, dear people, i don’t consider you a villain, i couldn’t even think that you deliberately killed kolya, it really was a nervous breakdown , i understand how horrified you were when this... happened and what is in your soul now? life is the villain, not you, but still you committed a sin and must atone for it with your whole life, not only with meekness, but with the strength to overcome the disgust towards you, which you may encounter and will experience more than once meet, but kolya may have already forgiven you, and will not forgive you only if you are cruel, embittered and deceitful, do not turn away from people, understand, if they sometimes turn away from you, forgive them and... “the obkomskys ruined me praise, but i survived, there are many enemies, but those who love my poems are many times more, yes, that is, you then stopped corresponding with him after that, yes, yes, i did not answer him at all to this letter, so he then myself, you know, i worked in the library, there wa