. >> reporter: turner partihepate inountless vigils over the years in order to keep their sweet smiles in the media. >> until their found, i will be looking for my kids zblfrm. >> reporter: he says he's not the sam man he was four years ago. the nightmares are not to worst of . >> the worst is when you have the nightmares that feel real and they' home and i'm cuddling with them in my arms and they're not a i wake up and realize they're never going to be agr:n. >> reporimply heartbreaking. that vigil gets around way here parking lot fil-a at 7:00 this evening. troy says come on out. >> i don't think we realize how tough that has to beha for man. thank you, darcy. >>> the family of the herndon mother and children who were found dead in an apparent murder-suicide are still trying to understand the loss. the father found the boys and the family found the mother upstairs. the family says the boys were intelligent and sweet and that she was a devoted mother. >>> aew scandal for the catholic church that could lead to answers for men and women across the country who say their fathers, tir dads