get the guy is a and fewer times michael would come and the younger brothers james and david and tyrell and andre. and his mom would come out every time i would visit she would be like michael, do you have any idea what's going on? she's selling drugs, wants to drop out of school. with tears and i like i've got to do something about this. and i would result myself to get people involved in his life and all of the complexities the would be involved in trying to get him going in the right direction and i would start to plan my next trip to africa and my result would crumble at the degree of difficulty and i would literally let him down. it's easier to work with the younger kids whose younger brothers and it's a little bit like my dad she was great with us until a certain age and then it all just went to hell in a handbasket and the same thing i was replicating the pattern of my own life. >> were you angry? >> yes we had this guy come into our life and he gives -- comes back, sea and for a while, come back. we would just wish he wouldn't go any more, wouldn't see him for four months. we wo