and my father at time was a part time member of the of the army of the ulster defence regiment. he would be out serving his country at night. and, you know, those were dangerous times. were they frightening times for you? i mean, when you went out and you're a child, well, was there a sense of will he come back? will he face the same fate as my cousin faced? well, look, we were no different to many families, so i'm not sharing this because i believe that somehow we were a special case. we weren't. but yes, you were always worried about the knock on the door. who was it? and you were always at night suspicious of people calling at your home. you know, we had to check under our car every time the family went out to see would there be a bomb under the car? and that was life. that was what life was like growing up in the northern ireland that i was born into. and that's why i've dedicated so much of my life to moving north ——northern lreand beyond that. and i'm glad that my children have grown up largely in a more peaceful northern ireland and that that makes politics all worthwhile