and my momom would be e like: "u won't undederstand. it is that feeeeling that t oney you will feel it. but right t now, i understand. and, i can connect. i wish my y dad was around, andi would tell him that t i know w t moththerland is.s. >> when i go to my friends and ask them to help me with my work, they say, "why are you so happy? we see the things on the news, and that's all we can think about." i i say, i am alive. those who died, you write about them and their memories. when they were alive they would tell us about their dreams. dreams they now can't reach. i tell thehem, "i am alive now,, come helelp me make my film." soso if i die e in a suicide atk or something tomorrow, you won't feel guilty. with most friends i have spoken to, or askeded their opinion, ts is what i've found. they either want to o stay hereo matter what. or, they say "no". after risking our lives here for so long, they choose to take another risk over there. when i speak to my friends, i say, "let's s you and i take the risk of staying here. to see what happ