vanessa pearson meeting her asset in vienna that would happen. >> a big part of what happens today. you had issues with the cia vetting it and not wanting you to write certain thing. book? >> when you join the cia you are obligated to stein secrecy document, to protect sources which i support, and with blow-back, happily they recognized it was fictional, i wasn't revealing sources or methods. so unlike fair game which had quite a bit redacted this one there are no black marks. >> oh, good. going back to what happened to you in 2013 you were outed as a covert agent, you had to resign a couple of years later, you can could go nowhere at the yay, you came from a secret agent to being a household name. how was that for you? >> it was difficult. it took me several years to come to terms with it. i was a very private person, secrecy is paramount. you don't do the job without -- >> that must have made it harder. >> it was really difficult both my husband joe wilson and i went through the wringer. and it took me a while to realize that at least if i'm going to be a public person, i can use