there is no ativan to get you through the shakes, and no methadone, november trawl -- no vivitrol, know anything. so those seven days, neele knowing that she had to deal with all of my stuff, all of her stuff, it was devastating. but there was a turning point in there for me, that when you hit your bottom like that, you make a decision that i cannot live like this anymore. misconceptions and stereotypes surrounding a particular heroine, because in the beginning you said they called it the hillbilly -- >> hillbilly heroine. yeah, i think so, and a journalist, the director of the writers' tate institute, and he was a journalist for a great newspaper, he reviewed my book, and he had this great line. he said heroine does not read resumes, and that is the changing of the thought, because i thought growing up the person who was addicted to heroine lived under a bridge somewhere and was pushing a shopping cart around or something like that. but that is not the case. one of the most abused drugs right now on wall street among elites, and these are , professionals, are opioids. and going back to